This is being written by Illana. Unfortunately, Leah isn't well enough to write. It's Saturday night and I'm sitting next to Leah's bed in the hospital. On Friday afternoon, before I left the hospital and I wished Mom and Leah a Good Shabbos I told Mommy that if there were any changes she should please text me. I never thought in a million years that I would really be hearing from her on Shabbos, let alone via telephone. Anyone who knows me could imagine how I felt when my phone rang at 5:00 in the morning on Shabbos and I jumped up to hear Mommy crying saying "Come Quick, Something's wrong. They're working on her." I don't think I could ever describe how I felt at that moment. How could I get to the hospital in Manhattan on Shabbos in less than 5 minutes without getting myself killed and without being too mechalel Shabbos? Keith quickly called a taxi. No answer. Forget it. Just get into the car and drive as fast as I can. No stopping at red lights. In fact, don't bother looking at the road because can't see thru the tears and the next thought I won't even share because you'll all scream at me.
Enough about my insane 15 minute trip to Manhattan, here's the important update about Leah's health. At about 5am Leah said she had to use the bathroom. Mom and a nurse helped her because she was too weak to go by herself. On her way back to bed, she passed out and became completely unresponsive. Her blood pressure dropped to 40/20 and her oxygen level went below 50%. So, of course, the whole team came running to work on her and now you understand why Mommy called us.
Boruch Hashem, when I arrived at the hospital the situation had become more stable and David, Jacob, and Rachel were already there. Leah's blood pressure was still low, but improved as was her oxygen level. But she was still very out of it.
Here's what we're up to now. Leah has developed several lesions on her body over the last day and a half. They look somewhat like welts but they are very painful to the touch. To Leah, they feel like bad bruises, but the scans show no evidence of bleeding. Also, the MRI that they took last night showed lesions on her liver and spleen and let's not forget that the abdominal pain is what brought her in here to begin with. So, Leah's team of doctors are now thinking that these lesions, both internal and external may be a fungal infection and they are treating her as such. They also biopsied one of the lesions on her leg this evening but it will take some time to get the results. So she's now on lots of new very strong anti-fungal drugs as well as lots of new anti-biotics. She's also been receiving many units of blood and platelets on an almost constant basis as her hemoglobin level has also been very low.
So after all of this rambling, where do you, Leah's fans come in? She needs your prayers and support at this time so badly! She loves you all.
Leah. Our love and prayers are with you for a speedy recovery from this setback. You are in our thoughts every single day. Can I do anything at all? Dad is away again(I knew this time).
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Deb and family
I've been davening for leah 3x per day and made a mishaberach on shabbat. i sent a letter to the HILI forum (with leah's hebrew name) that we should all be davening for her.
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E Horwitz
Fairfax, VA
My moonie.......I am so sorry you have to go through yet another rough time. Hang in there, I love you so much and I am thinking and praying for you endlessly. Illana, please let me know if there is anything I can do.....
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sunshine
Our continued tefilot for Layah's strength.
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Leah, what can I say. I love you so much and am davening for you. You were on my mind the entire Shabbos and that's where you will stay. I am so sad that you have this rough patch, but I firmly believe that with Hashem's help, and all the tefillos, you will get through this and you will be fine.
ReplyDeleteIlana, Mom, David, Rachel and Jacob - stay strong and positive!! If you need anything please call me. I'm always available for anything and anyone whenever I'm needed.
Love you all.
Shelly
Oh Leah - I am so sorry that you are going through this. I am praying for you each waking moment I have. I want you home and strong very quickly. Please let me know if there is anything you need or want to chat about. I know I am far away, but I can try to encourage you and just be here for you in spirit. Love and hugs. (It almost sounds like shingles or CMV to me??? so good call on the anti-fungal stuff - they have got you in good hands so smile and get better :-)
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A 5 AM Wake-Up Call and the Splitting of the Sea
ReplyDeleteHashem usually acts in ways that are hidden from plain sight. The laws of nature are a good example. But sometimes Hashem desires to show us His hand, as was the case at kriat yam suf, the splitting of the sea, which we read about today in shul. Trapped between the Egyptian army on one side and the sea on the other, Moshe tells Bnai Yisrael, “Don’t be afraid, stand strong and see the salvation of Hashem.” Hashem then suspends the laws of nature as Bnai Yisrael is rescued from what must have seemed certain death. Only then is Bnai Yisrarel woken from its slumber and the parsha continues that Bnai Yisrael “believed in Hashem….”
Today we were also woken from our slumber. As you were clinging to the shores of this world, the sea split and we witnessed the salvation of Hashem. Like you’ve been telling us all along, “believe in miracles!”
Nice to have you around.
Love,
Froggie
PS. I know this wasn’t typical “Froggie”, but then again today was no typical day.
OMG... I am praying for you tonight.<3 Patty
ReplyDeleteI am glad to have chatted with you breifly this morning. That must mean you are feeling a little better. I will pray for your refu’ah sh’leimah.
ReplyDeleteIlana be strong, listen to Leah and believe in miracles Hashem can do everything and anything and we will all keep davening more and more.Lets hope this turn is just to remind all of us to again strengthen our emunah.
ReplyDeleteI hope today will be a better day ,and that the pain will not be that bad and they will be able to keep Leah comfortable.
Keep us all updated, and let Leah know we are all here for her from far and near.
Wishing her a Refuah Shleima, and wishing all the family more and more strength to be there for each other.
love,
zeldie
Hi Leah, What the hell is going on? I can't leave you for a few days without you getting into trouble. I came home from AZ a few hours ago and I couldn't sleep because I had such a strong feeling to check in with you. This is not what I expected. Now cut out the shenninagins and get better. Tell David to stop beating you and maybe the bruises will go away. Only kidding David. It really tears my heart that you are experiencing this major setback. So turn up the morphine drip and sleep. Your body needs to refuel itself to get better. Hopefully you'll have a better day today. My prayers are with you and the entire family. Please don't hesitate to call. Always on my mind in in my heart. Love Buford xxx000xxx
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Dear Leah,
ReplyDeleteAliza (aka Weezy) is my witness that I wrote a beautiful posting and lost it in cyberspace... I will try to remember everything I wrote but the gist should still be there.
Last night I was working with Yair on his Machshava Paper which is on the topic "Does G-d exist?" He started with the quesstion "How does one have a relationship with G-d?" but that turned out to be too difficult to get his hands around so we went back to the basic question of "Does G-d exist?" There are several points to be made, but many answers are based on the proof that many things have happenned (especially creation, splitting of Red Sea, everyday miracles, etc.) that cannot be explained in any way but with the conclusion that there is a G-d there. So, too, we believe that things can happen, and will happen, which we cannot explain. You are so lucky to have so many wonderful people davening for you and assuring that there are many angels appealing on your behalf. B'ezrat Hashem you will be feeling better real soon.
We had a lovely Shabbat with Aliza (aka Weezy). It was a busy Shabbat with company and lots of good food (as you can imagine). My mother was here too, which we are always thrilled. She has the feeling that she should stay at home because that is her new "situation" but I tried to prove to her that she has more probability of having good times if she comes and so far she understands. I and my family are so happy to have her with us. Mrs Wiseman, I'm sure that you family is so appreciative on how you turned around and came back from Florida. May Hashem continue to give you the strength. We miss your smiling face and glad that it's by Leah's side.
Ilana, you know I'm always a phone call away....and the girls want to step out on this beautiful weather day....speak to you later.
Love you all, Our prayers are with you always...
Doba and family
Leah,
ReplyDeleteFight,Leah. We will all help you. We pray for you, think about you, love you. My heart is with you, the kids, David, and your wonderful mother. Get better, we have to make plans for Fire Island. Love you, Geanie
Leah.
ReplyDeleteWe are all sending you hugs, kisses...and lots of love.. You can "do it"!
xoxox
we love you
the plotners
First of all, all of us here at the Felder home love you all and are praying for you all to have some shalom and peace of mind, this of course, means Leah having a speedy, refuah shlaimah and all of us having emunah and remebering, hard as it is, that all that Hashem does, is ultimately a chesed, though it is beyond us to see that sometimes. So, instead of trying to understand, let's tell Hasshem that what we all really need from Him is Leahs full, secure, and quick recovery. There is a special merit in abstaining from loshon hara and practicing ahavas yisroeal. I have participated in groups where the day has been divided into different hours where people volunteer to stay away from loshon hora for a two hour period for speaking, listening, reading, and writing, it's not so easy but very powerful. I would also like to divide the book of Tehillim so we can have it read in it's entirety for 40 days in Leah's zchut. If anyone out there can commit to either or both of these please call me, Jenny at (917)494-8842. Leah and family, keep the emunah it will keep you strong, we love you and believe you!
ReplyDeleteI can not believe it is only a week since we sat 2gether in ur living room. Our thought and prayers r w/u Illana and David PLEASE call when u need to talk - Leah - Yakov will visit in a herat beat just say the word. Draw strength from whomever and wereever u can
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